Last week sometime I took my measurements and they are bad. I’m not ready to share the exact numbers or the progress pictures yet but just take a look at my weight chart that I’ve been keeping for the last 4 and a half years.
A lot happened over the last year and a half to propel that line upward. The two biggest things were stress and injury and it has been a losing battle the last few months. I am aware of the problem but seemingly unable to stop it. (I can actually stop it with enough determination but anyone who has struggled with gaining or losing weight knows that there is more to it than “just do it”!)
So, it felt both good and bad to take my measurements and see the progress pictures (which resemble my old “before” pictures a little too much). Maybe it was the kick in the pants I needed? I’m also a believer of you’ll do it when you’re ready or in your own time. I know I wasn’t really ready the last few months. Am I now? Well, honestly only time will tell. Back in June 2009, when I first joined Spark People and steadily began to steadily lose weight, I really wasn’t sure how it would go. I just kept working at it and the weight came off. I slowly got fitter, healthier, stronger. There was no way for me to tell that it was the right time. It just was.
I had it really easy back then (in 2009, I worked a 9-5 and had no other obligations!) but people busier than me are successful at being fit and healthy so there’s really no excuse. It is just a difference in priorities (I often pick homework or studying over gym time), so I’m just going to keep plugging away at it. Each day, I’ll make health a higher priority in any way that I can. Maybe I can’t make it to the gym that day but I can pack a healthy lunch.
Small things will add up over time and hopefully I can build some healthy habits again to make it that much easier (because you don’t have to think about habits!). I’m already in the habit of packing lunch. Next, maybe I can get better at drinking enough water or hitting the gym more days of the week. Slowly but surely, I will get back my healthy, strong body I once had!
I want to be here again!