Not Thinking About It

Yesterday, I woke up super cranky from a sugar-dairy-and-wheat bomb I had the night before.  It is not just digestive problems that I have with those foods but also the lethargy, headaches, mood changes, etc.  That is why I laugh a little when people say that a food doesn’t bother their stomach – it’s not always just the stomach where you need to look for symptoms.  But I digress.

The crankiness and other events over the last month are what triggered my blog post yesterday about just being healthy.  After I posted it, I went through my day almost relieved.  I didn’t have to track or stress or worry about weight loss.  I could just be me all day and not really think about my health.

In the past, this would have been more scary.  The biggest concern was that I might go down a slippery slope toward weight gain.  Well, I stressed over health for the last year and I did gain.  It had nothing to do with if I was tracking or not.  It had everything to do with my lack of healthy decisions and a whole crap ton of stress.  Now that the stress is being handled, it is much easier for me to follow this very lax plan for health.

So I went about my day, eating when I was hungry, eating what I felt was appropriate, moving about my house as much as I could (it wasn’t much though!).  I went to bed happy with my day.  I hadn’t given much thought about my food choices between meals.  I didn’t have to worry that my lack of measuring my food was causing me to eat too many calories.  It was just relaxing!

Today, I woke up feeling much better and more alert (no lethargy-inducing foods for me yesterday).  I also knew I could do as pleased again today within reason of course.  I didn’t work out yesterday so I have to today.  It is part of my “deal” with myself.  I shouldn’t miss more than 1 day of exercise.  Serious movement every other day.  It can be just a walk if I’m not feeling more.  Easy and stress free.

I weighed myself this morning mostly because it had been a while and I wanted to just check in.  I’m about the same so that is good (considering I haven’t been working out).  I never freak out over the exact number just the general trend (its been going steadily up the past few months – eek!  I’ll take a plateau!!). 

I guess my point is that all of this weight loss stuff shouldn’t be stressful.  It was once fun to track and count and micromanage but then became a chore.  I had too much other stuff going on.  Of course, there was not much to stop me from going the wrong way which I did for a while but life happens.  I’m happy where I’m at right now with my relationship with health, even if I’m not the fittest I can be.  That can be changed though and I’m just going to take it day by day!

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