I just can’t seem to get my head around it lately. I had a great weekend but I gained yet another pound. I know how I’m gaining, why, but I just can’t seem to stop myself. I’ve already talked about this and its still happening before my eyes. Let’s just talk about what a great weekend I had first though (you’ll see from the pictures why I gained!).
Thursday was my birthday and Rob took me out to dinner at my favorite Thai place. This is big because he doesn’t like “strange” foods. He liked what he got so the trip was a success! I got the fried rice but it wasn’t my favorite. I also enjoyed a bowl of soup and some Thai iced tea (tea with spice and coconut milk). Afterwards, we stopped at Sports Authority where I got a new water belt that holds only 2 bottles (I feel silly with the 4 bottle one on at half marathons and shorter races) – just what I wanted! Then we went out for Frozen Yogurt.
Friday, my sister wanted to take me out for my birthday so we headed to the new casino in Atlantic City called the Revel and ate at Village Whiskey (a duplicate of the same bar in Philadelphia which I’ve also been to). The food is always amazing and I enjoyed my drink too. We shared Duck Fat Fries, both go burgers (mine with Chevre and bacon), and split a blondie brownie topped with ice cream and a caramelized whiskey sauce. I had an Old Fashioned to drink since we were at a whiskey bar! Then we walked around the casino floor for a while and ended up +$20. Not bad!
Saturday was spent doing errands and things around the house. Nothing special to tell. Sunday was Father’s Day of course. My sister and I put together a little barbecue for my dad (we have 2 other siblings but my brother was working and my other sister lives far away) and it was really nice. We sat outside eating and talking. This was the first time I really grilled anything more than burgers and everything came out great! My sister took care of the ribs and they were delicious too with a cranberry-chile jam on top.
So after a long, fun weekend, it was time to step on the scale. I usually don’t do such torture to myself but I wanted to face the music so to speak. Luckily I have a hard skin (or actually a level head) and don’t take the scale to heart. I see it as a tool, a form of measurement of my weekend of indulgence.
Haha,this picture just made me laugh. Anyway, I was up again a few pounds. I am officially up 27.5 lbs from my all time low (which was a good weight but my body fat still needed some help at the time). I’m a little concerned though that this doesn’t bother me more. I should be bothered, upset, ready to get back on track. I’m almost complacent though.
It just boils down to what I always say about losing weight: You have to be ready. Maybe I’m not ready for it yet? I don’t know. I definitely am not happy about gaining, about not fitting into my jeans right, about eating junk food. I just can’t seem to get my head in the game. I want to make a plan like I usually do but I almost feel ashamed to. Because what if I fail again? What if I only make it 2 days on my plan? What if I let you all (and myself) down again? I don’t want people (and myself) to give up on me because I’m always failing, slacking off, forgetting my goals.
Nonetheless, I need to do something. And that something has to involve the basics of weight loss:
- Counting my calories (I hate it but I have to do it).
- Eating all natural, healthy foods (90% of the time).
- Exercising regularly (at least 30 minutes, 5 times per week).
- Being accountable.
Those are my basic core needs for successful weight loss. They might be different for everyone but that is what my body requires. There are of course many more details – how many calories, intensity and type of exercise, types of foods, who I’m accountable to, etc. So I’m just going to start with those 4 things and try to forget the rest! This weekend was a great weekend of celebration, no regrets whatsoever, but its time to be better for the long haul so I can be healthy and happy in my own body!
What about switching the focus to being strong instead of thin? Since I focus less on the scale and more on fitness goals – lift this amount or squat that many pounds, it’s been easier and more rewarding. I hardly step on the scale anymore and i see a difference in my body. That said, now that I’m on the strength training bandwagon, running has taken a back seat!
I actually had weight lifting in there but took it out since I thought it was too specific. Ha! I definitely agree that lifting changes you body more than cardio ever could and always try to include it at least twice per week (either Body Pump style or heavy lifting). It is always a priority of mine. Body Fat Loss is really my goal but I find it easier to just say weight loss. I just want to feel comfortable in my own skin again!
~Ang
I am back to sparkpeople! keeping track of what I eat, and workouts. Also, keeping healthy things in my house. I have had ice cream, and cake for andrews birthday, but then I balance the other meals. Ill help you, if you help me 🙂
Awesome! I track on My Fitness Pal. I think I’m going to start updating here more too. I hate being one of those blogs that keeps track of every little bite and calorie burned though so we’ll see how it goes. We can do this together!
~Ang