Tired of Being Sick

Yesterday, I got food poisoning. Again.

I feel like I just can’t win! I don’t know what it was from. Luckily my friend was staying with me and ran to the store for me to get me some soup to eat. Today, I’m able to hold down liquids and some food and am able to function enough to go to school (its midterms, can’t miss).

Love this soup when I’m sick, Paleo or not! Luckily this was a really mild case and I never actually got sick but just couldn’t eat all day and just laid on the couch not moving.

Funny thing is that I’ve been wanting to sort of reset my stomach lately because I’ve been eating so poorly. An almost 24 hour fast will do that! Honestly though, on Paleo or not, I never really feel well. I thought about keeping track of it in a journal or something but there is hardly a day that goes by that I don’t think “boy my stomach hurts” or some other ailment. Like I said, this happens whether I am on or off Paleo. Before you get nervous and tell me to run to my doctor, I have always been like this. So to me, its normal. It might not actually be normal but I have learned to live with it.

My gut feeling tells me that it has something to do with my diet but I haven’t quite figured it out. I know that Paleo is better than non Paleo but Paleo still isn’t 100% right. Maybe I need to be stricter? But then I sacrifice my sanity a bit. I don’t want to be overly obsessed with food. I don’t want to stress out every time I try to eat at a restaurant or stop at a convenience store. I just want to feel normal and feel good.

I guess this post just morphed into a bit of a rant. Most people on Spark People, who are my main readers, are concerned with weight loss. My journey has evolved past that and into more general health concerns. Sure, I still have weight I need to lose but I want to do it the right way, the healthy way, the way that makes me feel good, not famished every night before bed, praying for sleep so that I don’t have to think about the hunger (been there, done that).

I’ve been at the weight loss thing for 4 years now and its tiring. Why haven’t I figured it out yet? I know the crash course way of losing it but not the healthiest way. Then I hear about people who do Paleo for a month and drop 20 pounds. I’ve done Paleo for a year and gained a few. People start lifting and running and *boom*, they are in smaller jeans. I had to buy bigger ones.

Now, this post is turning into a “woe is me” and I hate pity parties so I’ll stop here. I guess I just wanted to let you guys know some of the frustration that I have been feeling over the last few months. Frustration with my body that refuses to feel healthy and react the way I think it should. I’ve been to my doctor and she finds nothing wrong. I follow all the health rules and still no results. I will just continue on my path, lifting, running, and eating as healthy as possible and hoping for results. I really don’t need to get sick again though, it just makes me feel even weaker than my normal!